Part 1

So I have concluded that today's entrance will be a variety of breif topics that have been wandering throughout my thoughts for the past few days, in no specific order. :

1. I don't know which one to put first .

2. I have realized that I have changed my habbits so much that I am going mad, I am beginning to like school now. It is a fact that I have been in school for almost two years straight going on three. NO BREAKS [spring?]. I actually hated school with a passion and felt depressed having to wake up and spend the majority of my day on campus. But now that I have grown so appreciative of my many opportunities and listening to the medocre exaggerated complaints about school of others, I like going to school Monday through Friday.

3. Majority of my life I have never been able to settle down and actually grow up having a 'life time' friend. I have been used to always moving before getting too close, so I would have my casual ecounters with 'friends' from time to time whenever we seen eachother again. But I have been living in Riveride county for a good four years now and not supprisingly I continue onward with the same routine. I find myself becoming close with people and then at the most inconvient time we lose contact. I still have love for those people, and can be someone they could call on whenever they need something but yeh. Majority of the time its a trait or sudden change that draws me away. I can honestly say I am not shaken about it and am content with these situations.

4. Why is it when I write for a long period of time, I allow my thoughts to come out without thinking about them...I WILL FINISH LATER GOT TO GO.

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woah buddy .

This is kind of disturbing, but you have to admit it's also quite amusing! Like what the heck ? ahahaha well that's about all for now, just thought I'd share it with you .

the heck ?

I just examined my previous blogs from 2007 and, I did not understand ANY of them lol .

I would delete them but there is no point lol .

Update . *

So, today was a kind of normal day. Everyday is the same. I feel ashamed because I never have any expectations out of my days, meaning I have none for life. (Examine the context to receive understanding.) Lately it seems as if many express their negative attitudes to anyone crossing their paths, ecspecially me. Must I speak on how it truely bothers my soul. I do not advocate keeping troubles bottled up inside, but I also don't agree with agressively venting them out to others. I have to keep in mind that I am very opinionated, so I can't say too much to those who are angry. Because then I'll be acting as the amuniton to their fury, giving them yet a reason to be even more tempermental with me. I just have to pray it away, because I know my previous ways and I don't want to be the one to take it the upmost extremes. On a good note, I have a gut feeling my progess in school has increased.

Alright there's more. Hmmmm . As I sat here amasingly with no music in the background I acquired more acceptance for the beauty of silence. I love music. I actually find it difficult to wake completely up in the morning with no music. But one thing about music is that it remains a great influence on our thoughts. I challenge you to take atleast a 20 minute break of silence, listening to the promising sounds of nature and see where it allows your thoughts to roam. peace + serenity.

It's been a while .

but I'm here now . new posts soon .