I guess I can admit I get VERY personal on here, I guess it is a catch 22. I don't care, then I'll be like "whoa lol" .

Well I am 18 now, I know I am not "grown". But I am working two jobs, paying my own rent, and full time college student at an university. I always imagined myself to be a child forever. Literally, I never imagined myself graduating highschool let alone turning 18. 17 is truely an amazing age!

December 27, 2009 was a phenomenal day. It only sucked because I kept on thinking about how my mother and brother are leaving in the morning. And now I find myself trying to avoid sleep to only see my brother longer. Sooo many emotions. Being so far from life in California can get depressing. I have just got to stay in constant prayer and stay focused.

BTW hope my great grandparents had an AMAZING anniversary up there in Heaven.