Okay; just woke up .

Alright ummmm this is what's on my mind . Earlier this week I had plans on going out, but now I'm just not in the mood to go anywhere . Like I swear about 5 different people back to back asked me to go do something 'fun' with them fri/sat yesterday and I told them all no. stupid I know I'ma regret it later. But I guess I just need some me time, away from the public blahd. [HAHA] Well tomorrow I'm just gonna do some homework and lay down watching movies all day and if its cold I'll include hot chocolate with whipped cream and marshmellows =] . And/Or go get a upside down Carmel Machiato with two extra shots ahhh YUM ! But lets get to the point in what two or three months I'll finally be sixteen. Like I never even thought about my birthday like this before. I'm disappointed because my mother canceled my charity event for an idiotic reason . Hmmm age is just a number because in my mind I'm wayyy older than 15 haha . Like I've beeeeeen through so much, which means I've seen alot. Literally I've been all over the U.S except Alaska and I'm going to Europe[if its God's will] this coming up summer .[that's not why I feel older lol] But anywho when I turn 16 I'll finally be able to start my job, its like I get hired for jobs but my silly ass ruins it by being 'honest' and telling my true age. If all goes well my sister, cousin, and I will be getting an apartment by the beginning of 2008 or maybe even sooner because my mother plans on re-locating to Georgia and I just can't do it. Ecspecially since I'm just beginning college . All I want to really accomplish before the end of this year is get closer to the Lord, pass the semester with high grades, start my job, get our apartment, andddd TRY and hurry and get my permit !!!! I could be getting my liscense right now but I fcked over my sophomore year of highschool and had to spend too much time in school making those credits up, instead of taking driving classes. I just want my carrrr ! I'm feeling kinda low but not depressed. I don't get it. hmmm oh well right ?